silhouette

I took this picture one morning while for setting up for a video shoot. It really felt like spring to me. I need to start packing. I need to also finish a couple of personal projects in the next week. I am leaving in less than two weeks now. Wow... It's been a long year, good in many ways. Filled with silence and isolation for what seemed like months at a time and then other periods where the opposite felt true.

from cedar road

tidal-cloud

ending time

Time is running down here in Provo. The winter is a distant memory with temps now at 85. Two weeks of work left. Three weeks of Utah left. feeling kind of nostalgic or something...not for utah, just for all the places I've been and gone, people met and departed with, turning to years and dust...

pain and joy - antithetical forces of the same spectrum

I went to the dentist yesterday morning and he promptly gave me a root canal(one of the more painful dental procedures). I had to work right after and couldn't really go home and rest. The pain meds helped but made it hard to focus. By evening I was feeling better so a friend and I went to see Mogwai, which I had previously bought tickets for a few months back. I started having tooth pain again so I popped another pill but then started feeling really loopy and light-headed(I think it was combination of he medication, the music, and the fact that I had hardly eaten a thing all day). By the time I got home, I felt like I had been on a long journey and needed to sleep for a couple of days. I called in sick in the morning so I could recover from the whole root canal/concert experience. It's really nice weather outside. There is sun but also I cool breeze. Life feels pretty nice overall and I'm glad I took a pause from the malestrom of recent stresses and work for today. It makes me sad in a way to leave Utah now that I've been here a year. It's hard once you get settled in to a place to sever all the roots and pick up and start over again. this is the most settled in(longest I've been somewhere) I've been in years I think. I am definitely feeling the desire to just be still in one place rather than the constant transitioning. Comfort is a nice thing, even if it does lull us into stagnant oblivion. Following a routine day after day, it's like falling asleep at night. Years can pass as though a blur and a dream.

domain stealers and pain

Well, less than 24 hours after my doimain registration expired, I found that it reflected an entity, a unnamed company, that was not me. I thought there was a 40 day grace period after your domain expires. I went to the domain registrant and clicked renew and payed up and 20 minutes later my domain again reflected my dns pointers. I don't know what is going on. Does my registrant 'lease' out my domain if I don't renew right on time? I'm sure this has to be in violation of ICANN policy. Anyway, any of you that checked my site today and found something other than my site, just disregard the violation. As for the pain, my tooth is killing me. I have an appointment with the dentist in the morning.