some words
I was waiting for my computer to finish it's harddrive scan while booting up and to allieviate my boredom I picked up an old notebook and found some prose/poetry I wrote last year while living in insolation in Utah. I decided to publish it here:Sometimes I wonder if I haven't broken all the goodness left in me and corrupted it with appetite. 3:00 AM... 10:30 PM marked 24 hours with a mere 3 hours sleep behind that. The spur and tout of neuroticy, a failing shake into the collapse of self-indulgence. Self-asorbance - the sinkhole of the soul... Introspection in the amble of fatigue's breakdown defines my stupor, draping along the walls the confines of my space, thickening through haze to a rubbery suspension of reason and dull emotion. I ask why I'm still hanging on and I know the answer will bring me back to the start of this page, cycling, wearing down the grove of consciousness until the senselessness of it absorbs exhaustion in sheets and layers of lights and sounds to a darkening blur of muffled cacophony. Slowly all drifts away into a black and silencing listlessness.
Notes: In case you don't know wht it is about - it's basically about insomnia (not about comitting suicide as some in the past have mistaken my poetry for). Also, "neuroticy" is not a word as far as I am aware but I meant it to mean - in the state of being neurotic. Perhaps the right usage would be neuroticacy??? nope, not a word either... Additionally, in the word "Self-absorbance", I meant this to mean the action of being self-absorbed... But 'absorbance' tends to have a different meaning as found in the some scientific equation.
Disregard that usage...
Posted by Benji at 10/31/2006 11:37:00 PM | 2 comments read on
monday holiday
...too much time inside so I took a drive but the weather was unpleasant so I came back and watched more anime...
but if I bother to open the curtains every once in a while, there's not such bad things...
from my bedroom window:
Posted by Benji at 10/23/2006 03:41:00 PM | 1 comments read on
labor..day
I went to work on Friday feeling pretty good. I felt even better when someone asked me what I was going to do with my "long" weekend, and realized that there was apparently some kind of holiday on Monday. The holiday turns out to be New Zealand's Labor Day. Well, as it turns out, I haven't done anything signifigant this weekend. A lot of people have gone out of town and stuff. I just kind of sat around and watched anime on the computer (www.crunchyroll.com). Nor have I felt the particular desire to "get out", although I will admit to feeling a bit restless in some sorts. Nov. will be busy for me so I guess I am just taking respite before the storm.
Posted by Benji at 10/22/2006 07:45:00 PM | 0 comments read on
Cicada
I decided that since I will be doing sound post on Amit's next feature, that I will do it under a brand rather than my personal name. Then in the future I can continue to build on that and hopefully offer this service to other independent productions. the reason being is that although there are several audio post facilities in Auckland, there is not a real low-cost alternative for independents that I am aware of. Also, sound onlining is something that I really came to like while working on Memories of Tomorrow. The idea for the business is to offer a flat rate for complete sound post solution, at which independent productions can afford. The purpose at the start will be to just support such type projects and to get involved with this community. If I see there is a large demand for this, I will definitely expand this idea to it's full potential.
Posted by Benji at 10/16/2006 04:55:00 PM | 0 comments read on
amendment
You may notice I have added a sliver of ads at the top. This is to help fund the cost of the webhost and domain renewal. It shouldn't be too obtrusive and I may decide to do away with it in the end. I just literally have no money to spare at the moment and so I am trying different things to allievate the stress of that. But enough of that... Everything is pretty swell. Not alot to report on at the moment. Some thing's will be happening in November but I'll talk about maybe when it starts happening. Sorry to sound so vague. I am not trying to be mysterious or anything. I just don't really feel like typing too much right now. Meanwhile work is coming along fine as is life.
Posted by Benji at 10/09/2006 04:17:00 PM | 0 comments read on
